Saturday, January 30, 2010

Moving Right Along

I attended a meeting yesterday for first time field experience for future teachers. I will be observing in a classroom twice a week until I reach a minimum of 30 hours. We don't have to start until Feb. 15, but I'm starting on Tuesday. I'm really excited. I called my teacher on Friday, and we agreed that Tuesdays and Thursdays would be good days for me to come. It doesn't seem possible that this is actually happening. I still feel like I should be taking general education classes, but I'm embarking on a step that will affect my future career.

I will be in a middle school, but that's okay because I know that teaching is teaching. I can still learn about how to teach English even if I'm not in a high school. For my next round of field experience, I will be in a high school. I do have a busy schedule this semester, but it is not as busy as last semester. I'm still working on the newspaper staff, and writing is still fun for me.

I am going on a mission trip at the end of May, and I'm thinking about knitting and crocheting scarves and hats to raise money for my trip. I have to have a certain amount of money by the first of February, and I know I won't have it, but God teaches me to trust him everyday that he will help me raise this money. I know I'm going on this trip for God's glory, so I know that he will provide.

I've been back in town for over a week now, and it doesn't even feel like I was gone for almost five weeks. I love not having a roommate, but sometimes it does get lonely. I miss having someone hug me everyday and tell me that they love me, like it was at home. But on the other hand, I have the freedom to do what I want in my room without having to ask anyone. So there are pros and cons, but I'm learning to love it.

It snowed here yesterday, but I ended up getting around to go to a birthday party today so it wasn't too bad. I'm going to church tomorrow at a new church that is a church plant off of a city about thirty minutes from here. The college ministers from the church I've gone to for about a year moved to this church, so I'm excited to try it out. I love the college ministers. I've been at their house a lot lately. Their door is always open, and they are so awesome; some of the most loving people I've ever met.

Well, not a lot more to share. God keeps showing me how much he loves me and how wonderful his plan is for me. I grow to love him more everyday.

I hope this next week is good for you. Until next time.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Starting Anew

I read my Bible last night and came across this verse in Psalms. It reads, "Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare" (Psalm 40:5).

I really like this verse because it reassures me that even though my little ole life seems to just poke along sometimes, I can be reassured that the things God planned for me in the beginning of time are too numerous for me to even try to count. It's unfathomable.

College....
Classes.....
When I will graduate.......

Marriage.....
Who it will be......
When it will be......

Job.....
What job I will actually get.....
Where it will be......

Money.....
Will I have enough of it......
Will I let it control me......

Time.....
How fast will time go before any of this happens.........
Where has the time already gone......

Love.....
Will I find a man who will truly love me......
Do I even know what true love is......

God knows that all of these things float around in my head all the time. He should; he put them there. Yes, the waiting is hard. It always has been. But through that waiting comes patience, strength, endurance, consistency, and so many other qualities that I haven't learned yet because I still wait.

But it's okay because God has a plan. I think about that sometimes and marvel at the fact that God knows exactly what is going to happen to me minute by minute for the rest of my life. And not only does he just know that about me, but he knows that about everyone. He's a pretty busy God. But I'm sure glad he does know.

More than anything right now, God asks me just to slow down and hear him speak to me. He wants to show me what that true love is and to know that in his arms, no other love matters but his. He will never break my heart; he will never disappoint. He will never leave me; he will never forget to call. He loves with a kind of love that I have only slightly glimpsed.

Well, that said, classes were good today. I only had two. I'll have three more tomorrow, and then I'll have a better scope to how the semester will go. It's just so nice to be back. I love being home with the family, but being back and being on my own is wonderful. And I have a room to myself this semester so that is nice too.

Now that I've written half my life story I will say goodbye. Until the next time.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Enjoying my break

I'm on break from school right now, and I'm enjoying it immensely. I can't get over how fast the semester flew by. But I learned many things this semester, although that information is for another post altogether.

My Christmas was great, and it was so nice to see family. I didn't get to go to Tulsa as early as I wanted because we had a beautiful, but terrible blizzard on Christmas Eve which prevented travel for the next two or three days. That was kind of a disappointment, but I'm here now, and all is well.

I'm excited to get back to school. I miss seeing my friends and miss the groove of my everyday routine with classes, newspaper, and everything else I do.

I was talking with a friend, and he mentioned how he hoped that 2010 was better than 2009. I thought that was kind of a funny statement, although I can see where he was coming from. I can honestly say that I hope the same. What is 2010 going to bring? God teaches me how to trust him in new ways everyday. I know that he will continue to teach me how to trust him. Trusting is not an easy thing. It takes courage, and ultimately, it takes faith. I have to come to the point where I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that whatever I have going on in my life that God is going to take care of it. He will take care of it better than what I could ever imagine. It's just that little step in between when I say, "Okay, God, here it is. Here's all my junk that I can't handle," that is the hardest. What if the end result is not what I would have planned for myself? What if trusting God is scary? Well, the Christian walk is scary; the Bible says that. God never said it would be easy, no sir. But he did say he would be with us every step of the way.

So, no, I don't know what 2010 will hold. But I do know that yes, whatever happens, it will be for God's glory, and it will be a great year.

Happy New Years to you all.